goth goose - n. 1. the term goth goose cannot be described in words, see my photos for visual explanation in full details.

Oh, and talking of photos: I have never seen such a self-loving page when I clicked myself to Zastur's photo gallery. Shit, I have stopped counting when I came to 20. Well, believe me, I know that 21 comes after 20 and I can really count further but do we really want to see that: Zastur at a churchyard, Zastur on a grave, Zastur all gothed up, Zastur with a finger in his nostril... WÜRG!

For a deeper understanding of Zastur's psyche I suggest you to read his essay of suicide/childhood/whatever which can be found under the section "discuss/Suicide and Rozz Williams":

"I've come quite close to it [suicide, Straylight] a couple of times, once seriously (I ended up in the hospital)"
Why not try better next time? If you had seriously wanted to die you would have been successful!

"By no means is someone who commits suicide weak"
Oh yeah, absolutely. You are very very strong. When you are dead you will be forgotten and do you really think the world gives a shit whether you live or not? You are insignificant (just like me).

"Killing yourself is a solution"
Without any comment...

"Granted, it's certainly the worst solution"
Oh, it took some time but now we are of the same opinion.

"but to someone who's so fucked up by what's happening to them, perhaps it's the ONLY solution."
*sigh* It seems to be senseless to help him.... :-)

"I was utterly alone until I was 20"
Sorry for you but some need to learn it by the hard way: YOUR FAULT!

"which is when I started getting heavily into the internet and started making friends."
Well, sometimes I talk to my computer, too, (my compy can be so caressing) but have you ever heard of the rumour that the word "friend" had been defined long before the internet has been created? If you got your first friends only by Internet you don't need a computer but a psychiatrist. Sorry to say that.

"I have more friends now than I know what to do with"
Just another lesson: There is a difference between a friend and an acquaintance. And a real friend never brags with having too much friends. Sorry but you have to learn a lot.

"a girlfriend that I love and who loves me"
Ah thank God, I can see hope and salvation for you...

...and this is a good point to stop for now and have some fun because it is already Monday 11.57 pm and I haven't uploaded this yet. And I want to do something with a few of my hundreds friends. What a pity, I have more friends now than I know what to do with...